daily prompt: love to love you
i’d love to say i’ve been through this before
you’re bringing out the best in me and i promised myself
but somehow i never let anyone so near that
i’m my worst self today my scarred, broken skin shows
and i turn into a joke
oh if you’d only seen me yesterday because it hurt so much
when i was careless, strong and free i promised i would heal
i felt like i was seventeen and began again
but most of all wiser
i felt awake stronger
oh had you seen me yesterday
you were my little secret i danced in the fitting room
i didn’t dare to tell the world how lucky i was
how grateful i were if you’d seen the minidress i bought for you
how i owed you if only i had told you
i was borrowing you lovely glow
and claiming it as mine would we be talking now?
and now you won’t answer is it because we disagreed, last week?
you won’t call me back i know i’m making it worse but
all this being awake it’s already bad
becomes too much and i don’t care
i regret it so if i said something wrong
and my head spins, please let me take it back
and i feel cold and sick because i will
hurt and i can’t think i’m begging you
one painful truth please tell me this
won’t let me be i know i can pull myself together
and go on, but it hurts
is this my fault, again? and
am i driving you off? do i really have to?
a former clarity 